I no longer need you.

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I thought it would be painful, letting you go.

I thought I would suffer, that my heart would be anguished with the loss of you. Or worse, maybe it would stop beating altogether.

Maybe without you, I would simply cease to exist.

I thought I would become adrift, for you had been the anchor I had formed my identity upon, the compass I had relied on for my direction. I thought without you I would become lost, disoriented.

I had expected to taste salty tears as they fell upon lips that once spoke so fondly of you; that my head would lay on my pillow damp with tears for as many nights as the moon continued to kiss the stars.

But one day, I just knew.

I hadn’t expected such a feeling of relief as I cut the ropes that once shackled me to you. One instant of tremendous clarity. One instant, where I finally knew.

I no longer needed you.

I no longer needed your opinion of me, your affirmation, your approval.

I no longer needed your judgments, your criticisms, your condemnations.

I no longer needed your expectations I could never meet; your hoops too high to jump through, your goal posts that shifted with every changing breeze.

I no longer needed your blame, your excuses, your justifications.

I no longer needed your pseudo love, fraught with conditions and attached with strings.

I thought I needed you. I didn’t.

I thought it would be hard to let you go. It wasn’t.

I thought I would miss you. I don’t.

For in one instant my heart was awakened to the truth of who I am.

I am more than the lies you made believe about myself. I am more than the look of failure in your eyes when I fell short of your demands. I am more than how worthless you made me feel. I am more than the ways you tried to break me.

I am a warrior, sculpted by the hands of creation, fashioned into being by the very hands that created the oceans and the stars and the mountains and air.

I am strong, I am brave, I am wise. I am gentle of spirit with the heart of a lioness.

I am creative, passionate, sensitive, and kind. I am of open heart and open mind. I am powerful, generous, thoughtful, daring, empathetic, raw, complex, courageous, understanding, forgiving.

I am everything you are not.

I will no longer carry the shame you made me suffer under the weight of.

That shame belongs to you.

And I will no longer carry my hate for you.

For that will only ever bind me to your darkness and give you permission to destroy my light. It will allow you to stay within me, to destroy my peace, to blacken my heart with the malice that lives within you.

It will tie me to your soul-destroying bitterness, your ugliness.

It will anchor me once more to you, who tried to drown me.

Instead, I will choose to go into the world and love more fiercely, show more compassion, be more generous, offer more kindness.

I will choose to forgive. For me, not for you.

I will choose to sow what I wish to see reaped for my children’s future.

I will choose to dis-empower hate.

I will choose freedom.

I will choose love.

I will stand firm upon the unshakeable truth of who I am.

And I will soar to heights you will only ever dream of.

For I have let you go.

No longer am I held down by all I allowed you to be in my life.

I no longer need you.

I am free.

Written by Kathy Parker

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Do it with Passion or Not at all!

This should be a “golden rule” in everything we do, especially business and work. The problem with this is that it is a challenge for a lot of us to have passion because we have spent years of our lives accommodating ourselves to other people’s dreams and passions, or going along with the crowd.

It is in that manner that I want to encourage you to:

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Dream – So many people stop dreaming because life is taking a toll. You should never stop dreaming because it is the gift that makes you an extraordinary visionary.

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Risk – Don’t play it safe, get out of your comfort zone. Playing it safe will never allow you to be set apart.

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Care – There has to be a method to your madness. Paying attention to details and ensuring that what you do you is sincere and not just to earn another dollar, creates authenticity. People can tell the difference.

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Expect – Nothing is impossible with God! You have to have a sense of expectancy that whatever you do is going to reap the result that you set out for it to do. Mainly, you need to be your biggest advocate. No one will believe in you if you do not believe in yourself.

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IN THE HANDS OF MAN

He who creates a poison, also has the cure.
He who creates a virus, also has the antidote.
He who creates chaos, also has the ability to create peace.
He who sparks hate, also has the ability to transform it to love.
He who creates misery, also has the ability to destroy it with kindness.
He who creates sadness, also has the ability to to covert it to happiness.
He who creates darkness, can also be awakened to produce illumination.
He who spreads fear, can also be shaken to spread comfort.
Any problems created by the left hand of man,
Can also be solved with the right,
For he who manifests anything,
Also has the ability to
Destroy it.

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A minute for peace…

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Saying a prayer can be as simple as thinking positive thoughts about someone—it’s not an act that needs to be tied to any particular religion or system of beliefs.

I can say a prayer just by saying “I wish you peace” after someone becomes angry with me for something trivial;
I can say a prayer for the woman who is always cheerful (or gloomy) at the store where I shop by thinking “I wish you all the best in life—good health, good relationships, and all of your true needs fulfilled.”

Of course, if you want to pray to God in the form in which you conceive of God, that’s fine, too—and your prayer will not be wasted.

Think about it. Is the world a better place when you walk away from someone either forgetting them immediately or thinking negative thoughts about them?

This world of ours can use all the positive thoughts we can contribute to it, and our simple and heartfelt prayers are some of the most positive thoughts we can create and share.

And they affect us as much as, if not more than, they affect the objects of our prayers.

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Bless Today: It Will Never Come Again

It’s fine to work toward future goals, but don’t forget that today will never come again.  You have only twenty-four hours to enjoy it.

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Instead of waiting to be an old lady to wear purple, wear it now.  Instead of waiting for retirement to live in a beautiful place, consider finding a way to get there now.  When we live our lives in accordance with our dreams, it becomes easy to cheer for other people doing so.  When we don’t, it’s easy to be sour grapes, unsupportive, or jealous when others break free and follow their heart’s desire.

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If you feel as if your life is somewhere out there as opposed to right here, stop and ask yourself, really ask yourself:

*  What is missing in my life?
*  What have I put on hold?
*  What am I waiting for?
*  What would really fill my heart and make me happy?
*  What would I regret if I died tomorrow?

Though you may not die tomorrow, the saddest death is walking around like a robot, cut off from the magic of today–from love, from beauty, from being where you want to be.

And remember, if all life is sacred, then today is sacred.  Ask yourself, What am I doing to feel joy today?  A wonderful way to start the day is to bless it:

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Blessings on this day, may I make it special in some way.
Blessings on my life, may I treat it with love and care.
Blessings on all people, may I see the goodness in everyone.
Blessings on nature, may I notice its beauty and wonder.
Blessings on the truth, may it be my constant companion.

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In the face of…

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In the face of complaints, look that person in the eye and imagine what it might have been like to be raised to see only what is wrong.

In the face of selfishness, wonder what it might be like to walk the world with a feeling of lack, of depletion.

In the face of insults, consider where this person first learned that it’s okay to abuse others.

In the face of disconnection, think about what causes it, and ask if your response will widen the river between the two of you.

In the face of laziness, recognize the fear of living big dreams.

In the face of extremism or fundamentalism, see the clinging, as well as the terror-filled silence that would arise for that person if they risked letting go.

In the face of controlling behavior, understand the chaos that must have bred it.

In the face of “always needing to be right,” see how often this person was once made wrong.

In the face of arrogance or bravado, hold gently that still, small piece that says “I’m not enough.”

In the face of drama or attention-seeking, see the person who wishes so much to be seen.

In the face of accusation, imagine what it might be like to live life with suspicion.

In the face of judgement or comparisons, step into the opportunity the world has just provided you for practicing love and acceptance.

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In the face of passive-aggressiveness, recognize the child that wasn’t taught a safe way to express their truth.

In the face of anger, see the pain of isolation from others.

Most importantly: In the face of ferocious hatred, believe in the possibility that there exists the potential for equally as big, intense, lovely and fiery ferocious love.

Okay. That is my love letter to the world, for today.

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Heart Month

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I hope this is the person you fall in love with and who falls in love with you:

Who looks into your eyes and see you for everything you are and still loves you for everything you are not.

Who never lets you fall asleep questioning who you are to them.

Who never lets the doubt of being unfaithful creep into your heart.

Who is always willing to show you off because they are so damn proud to have you.

Who appreciates you and never makes you feel like what you do for them goes unnoticed.

Who makes you laugh every damn day because they love to see you smile.

I hope you find the one person who is your absolute best friend.

Who makes you feel like you have a place and reason for being on this earth.

Who wants to help you grow and live up to your full potential.

Who spanks your ass and thinks you’re the sexiest person in the world.

Who will dance with your in the kitchen and sing with you in the shower.

Who brings you soup when you’re sick and does what they can to make you feel better.

Who wakes up on a Tuesday morning before you go to work and leaves the coffee on for you to wake up to.

Who never ever leaves the house without giving you a kiss.

Who cares about your health and your well-being more than your reflection in the mirror.

Who will be there by your side on the days that you hate to face alone.

Who will make you laugh when you feel like shutting down.

I’ll let you in on a secret- every day won’t be a good one. You’re going to have fights. Some days, you’ll be so annoyed with each other.

You will feel overwhelmed with life but none of this means that this person loves you any less.

If you go to bed ever feeling like they are not a blessing, they are not right for you.

If you can find someone who makes you feel like you are beautiful, deserving, and irreplaceable. Don’t ever leave.

This is person who will love you with every piece of their heart, every fiber of their being, and till their last dying breath.

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