We get mad over the smallest reasons. We over-analyze everything. We feel a sense of jealousy when we see you talking to someone who has more to offer. We get sad at the thought of ever losing you. We start pointless arguments and fights, just to see if you care enough to stick around. We often say things we later regret. We want to know you care as much as we do. It’s because we’re girls, and we need to be reassured from time to time♥
Every girl dreams of getting married, the big white dress, the handsome groom, all the decorations and the exotic honeymoon. But they don’t talk about the marriage, thats what I dream of, everyday life with you. Getting ready together, kissing goodbye in the morning, coming home at night and unwinding together, grocery shopping, cleaning, laundry, cooking, the ups and downs. the good the bad and the ugly. Thats what I dream of♥
You can never tell what people are thinking and feeling unless they tell you, and usually they lie. You ask them, ‘whats wrong?’ and they say ‘nothing’. You accept this because it’s easier than digging for the truth. people smile when they want to cry, they laugh when they want to scream and shout. They pretend like nothing is wrong because they don’t want to face the truth. things aren’t always rainbows and butterflies, sometimes you gotta scream and cry your anger and sadness to the world, because you can only hold it in for so long before something in you snaps. So when you want to cry, cry. when you want to scream, scream. Don’t hide behind fake smiles, it’s ok to not be alright.
It doesn’t matter if you have a boyfriend or a bunch of friends. If you’re lonely then you will feel lonely with or without these factors. They don’t change it. They don’t make you feel less alone. Lonely doesn’t mean you don’t have people who love you, it just means you don’t feel it. It’s a state of mind, not reality.
I want a simple love that is full of laughter & smiles and is never-ending. I want to hold someones hand and know I’m home. I want to wear a pretty white dress and walk into the chapel and watch his face light up. I want to be naive, head-over-heels, and completely senseless but completely in love. I want to sit in rocking chairs at 80 years old, next to the one person who never left and who made me better, and not regret one single second of my life. I hope I find this someday♥