Happy as, 33…..

Customer:        Ate Joy, ilang taon ka na?

Si Ako:              32 going 33.

Customer:        May BF ka na?

Si Ako:               Wala.

Customer:        Bakit di ka pa nag-aasawa?

Si Ako:              (Ngumiti na lang —- sa isip-isip ko, I’m happy   as a single, madami namang mga may asawa dyan na hindi naman masaya)

Today, I’m officially an “older” woman.

OK – to some people I’m really old.

To others I’m still young.

I get told I look between 25 and 28. (hindi ako nagyayabang – minsan sa bus napagkakamalan pa rin akong estudyante, wink-wink)


My current significant — is SIGNIFICANTLY younger than me.

I don’t FEEL old.


I really don’t FEEL old yet.

We don’t have to look older just because we’re getting older do we?


I don’t look old. In fact – I look at women my age and compare (sorry, it’s true) and I haven’t found very many of them that don’t appear to be their age.

I don’t know why age is so important.

I don’t like getting older.

Not because it is what happens.

But more so, because getting older, especially for women, means turning into something NO ONE appreciates any longer, andyan ung kakantyawan na ako na kesyo, wala ka na sa calendaryo! Or naku mahirap ka na magka-baby…to hell with these people.

As I get older I started to realize that I know what I really want to do in life. I am 33 and I think this has to do a lot with why I am thinking these things. I do want to get married some day and have a baby or 2 (sana kambal) and I will still work here in BeeCharm as long as may mga customers na gustong mag-internet, magpapa-encode, magpapa-research ng project. I am not sure what kind of a man that I wanna be with, pero noon pa man gusto ko na talaga ang Kalbo at Matangkad (this is the reason why I like Lex Luthor of Smallville and Michael Scofield of Prison Break).

Minsan nangangarap pa rin akong sumali sa UAAP Cheerdance Competition, alam mo ung ihahagis ka tapos nakabuka pa rin ang bibig sabay ngiti? hahaha.  Tapos pinangarap ko ring sumayaw sa winning dance competition ni Julia Stiles na hip-hop-ballet ng “Save the Last Dance”, frustrated dancer nga e no? Anyway these are only some of my weirdest thoughts, alam ko imposible na dahil matanda na nga daw ako…

Before, I was never happy with my body (super taba – waistline ko? 32) and so I started to go to the gym with my cousin and continued doing this when I went to Taiwan. Now I know, how to value and love myself, sa dami ng mga nakikilala ko araw-araw dito sa BeeCharm, minsan nasasabi ko mas maswerte pa pala ako, sa totoo lang masyado ng makapal ang mukha ko kung magrereklamo pa ako sa Diyos..

As of now, I am experiencing more joy, wisdom, and more sense of being beautiful inside, I gain more confidence and unique NOW because I was full of insecurities way back when I was in my 20’s . I have learned so much, lived and survived so much loss, that I feel strong, blessed, guided and more fulfilled and alive than ever.

No one wants to be thought of as old, so as we get older we push the age up.

ako eto

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