Archive for August, 2009

Happy as, 33…..

Customer:        Ate Joy, ilang taon ka na?

Si Ako:              32 going 33.

Customer:        May BF ka na?

Si Ako:               Wala.

Customer:        Bakit di ka pa nag-aasawa?

Si Ako:              (Ngumiti na lang —- sa isip-isip ko, I’m happy   as a single, madami namang mga may asawa dyan na hindi naman masaya)

Today, I’m officially an “older” woman.

OK – to some people I’m really old.

To others I’m still young.

I get told I look between 25 and 28. (hindi ako nagyayabang – minsan sa bus napagkakamalan pa rin akong estudyante, wink-wink)

My current significant — is SIGNIFICANTLY younger than me.

I don’t FEEL old.

I really don’t FEEL old yet.

We don’t have to look older just because we’re getting older do we?

I don’t look old. In fact – I look at women my age and compare (sorry, it’s true) and I haven’t found very many of them that don’t appear to be their age.

I don’t know why age is so important.

I don’t like getting older.

Not because it is what happens.

But more so, because getting older, especially for women, means turning into something NO ONE appreciates any longer, andyan ung kakantyawan na ako na kesyo, wala ka na sa calendaryo! Or naku mahirap ka na magka-baby…to hell with these people.

As I get older I started to realize that I know what I really want to do in life. I am 33 and I think this has to do a lot with why I am thinking these things. I do want to get married some day and have a baby or 2 (sana kambal) and I will still work here in BeeCharm as long as may mga customers na gustong mag-internet, magpapa-encode, magpapa-research ng project. I am not sure what kind of a man that I wanna be with, pero noon pa man gusto ko na talaga ang Kalbo at Matangkad (this is the reason why I like Lex Luthor of Smallville and Michael Scofield of Prison Break).

Minsan nangangarap pa rin akong sumali sa UAAP Cheerdance Competition, alam mo ung ihahagis ka tapos nakabuka pa rin ang bibig sabay ngiti? hahaha.  Tapos pinangarap ko ring sumayaw sa winning dance competition ni Julia Stiles na hip-hop-ballet ng “Save the Last Dance”, frustrated dancer nga e no? Anyway these are only some of my weirdest thoughts, alam ko imposible na dahil matanda na nga daw ako…

Before, I was never happy with my body (super taba – waistline ko? 32) and so I started to go to the gym with my cousin and continued doing this when I went to Taiwan. Now I know, how to value and love myself, sa dami ng mga nakikilala ko araw-araw dito sa BeeCharm, minsan nasasabi ko mas maswerte pa pala ako, sa totoo lang masyado ng makapal ang mukha ko kung magrereklamo pa ako sa Diyos..

As of now, I am experiencing more joy, wisdom, and more sense of being beautiful inside, I gain more confidence and unique NOW because I was full of insecurities way back when I was in my 20’s . I have learned so much, lived and survived so much loss, that I feel strong, blessed, guided and more fulfilled and alive than ever.

No one wants to be thought of as old, so as we get older we push the age up.

ako eto




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I learned that sometimes it is easier to

share my soul with the whole world

than it is to share it with someone


I learned that aspiring toward

my desires takes true commitment

and, a solid belief that my

goals have legitimacy


I learned that asking for

understanding is sometimes

impossible but,

giving understanding is not

I learned that trying to prepare

others for what lies ahead,

May confuse their innocence

and thwart their progress


I learned that saying no to someone

else, even when they object

Can help them learn to say no in their

own lives, when need be

I learned that wanting and needing

are hard to separate but the

difference is of great importance


I learned that I am stronger than

I thought I was

and, that I need both strength

and insight to function

I learned that I will not always feel

positive but that, my down days give

me perspective

I learned that patience takes


But, its rewards are immense


I learned that laughing

after making a mistake

Does not erase its valuable lesson

I learned that letting someone else’s

laughter reach my heart

Is just as rewarding as saying

something to make them laugh

I learned that appreciation of others,

of life and of challenges

Causes each day to be full and fruitful


I learned that it is good to expect

better of one’s self

But, not so good to stress over petty


I learned that living is not one huge

moment of joy



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A Reason To Ponder………

Read Each One Carefully And Think About It For A Second Or Two


I love you not because of who you are,

but because of who I am when I am with you


No man or woman is worth your tears,

and the one who is,

won’t make you cry


Just because someone doesn’t love you

the way you want them to,

doesn’t mean they don’t love you

with all they have


A true friend is someone who reaches for

your hand and touches your heart


The worst way to miss someone is to be

sitting right beside them knowing

you can’t have them


Never frown, even when you are sad,

because you never know who is

falling in love with your smile


To the world you may be one person,

but to one person you may be the world


Don’t waste your time on a man/woman,

who isn’t willing to waste their time on you


Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong

people before meeting the right one,

so that when we finally meet the person,

we will know how to be grateful


Don’t cry because it is over,

smile because it happened


There’s always going to be people that hurt

you so what you have to do

is keep on trusting and just be more

careful about who you trust

next time around


Make yourself a better person and know

who you are before you try and know

someone else and expect them to know you


Don’t try so hard, the best things come when

you least expect them to





You just never know where a person is in

his/her life, and what they are going through

Never judge another person’s scars,

because you don’t know how they got them


Also, it is so important that we are not too

selfish to receive the blessings of these

messages without forwarding them to

someone else; Right now, someone needs to

know that God loves them,

And you love them too


Please pass this on to those you love…

God has blessed you,

so that you can be a blessing to others



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My iNsPiRaTioN

browndivider86My iNsPiRaTioN


Be enthusiastic!!!

Put people up; not down!

Develop the ability to find the ability

in others; it’s “Priceless”!!


Help others be liked.

Help others be right.

Help others be comfortable.

Help others be winners.

Get your ego out of the way.

Replace “I” with “We.”


Commit yourself to something

bigger than yourself.

Act as if what you do makes a difference.

It Does!!

Go for it!

Start an epidemic of enthusiasm!


Throw your heart  over the bar

and your body will follow.

Don’t waste your time waiting for inspiration.

Begin and inspiration will find you!

Be on a mission!


Never let weeds grow under your dreams.

Never mistake knowledge for wisdom.

Never chase a lie.

Never laugh at anyone’s dream.

Never make excuses.


Make promises sparingly.

Keep them faithfully.

Have no limits.

Never kill an idea.

Pursue character before prosperity.

Be loyal.

Ask “What if?”


Give so much time to the improvement

of yourself that you don’t have time

to criticize others.

Create an

atmosphere of



Make your word your bond.

Don’t be little; be BIG!

Learn to say NO! to the good.

So you can say YES!

to the great!


Be unpopular when necessary.

Never be ashamed of what you believe.

Never let up when you are ahead.

Don’t blow your own horn, or

you just might miss the music.


Let others lead small lives, but not you.

Let others argue over small things,

but not you.

Let others cry over small hurts, but not you.

Let others leave their future in someone

else’s hands, but not you.


Never be afraid to dream;

be afraid not to.

Never be afraid to live;

be afraid not to.

Never be afraid to love;

be afraid not to.

Never be afraid to laugh;

be afraid not to.

You’re ALIVE,

“live it that way!”





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~*~Strength of a Man~*~


~*~Strength of a Man~*~

The strength of a man is not

seen in the width of his shoulders.

It’s seen in the width of his arms

that circle you.

The strength of a man isn’t in

the deep tone of his voice,

It is in the gentle words he whispers.

The strength of a man isn’t how

many buddies he has.

It’s how good a buddy he is with his kids.

The strength of a man isn’t in

how respected he is at work.

It’s in how respected he is at home.

The strength of a man isn’t in

how hard he hits.

It’s in how tender he touches.

The strength of a man isn’t in

the hair on his chest.

It’s in his heart …. that lies

within his chest.

The strength of a man isn’t how

many women he has loved.

It’s in – can he be true to one woman.

The strength of a man isn’t in

the weight he can lift.

It is in the burdens he can carry.


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